Sparkly Me

I’m tired of being the bad cop. Constantly telling the kids to turn off their devices because they’ve had too much screen time. Being the nagging mom that tells them to eat their vegetables. Repeatedly reminding them to floss, put away their things, make their bed. It literally feels like all I do is say the same things over and over. For once I want to be the good cop. The fun mom. 

I realized today that my kids only know this version of me. They have never known the young, carefree, and bubbly Before Kids Me. I used to be fun! I used to be optimistic and sparkly! 

Becoming a parent has made me lose some of that carefree naiveté. I am responsible for the physical, emotional, and intellectual growth and well being of another human being. Two little human beings I love so much I feel my heart will burst. It’s overwhelming.

So I will continue to remind my son not to tilt his chair at the table. And repeat to my daughter that she needs to go outdoors and get some fresh air and exercise. And tell them both once again to turn off the TV and read a book.

I may not always be fun. But I’m Mom.